Sunday, 22 January 2012


Summed at its best.

Embracing exams!

University is a stage in one's life where everything is solely based on you.
Being independent, and exerting that dependence to your actions.
The future like any other stage in ones life, is in your hands.
Reminder to the self, first and foremost,
To breathe in the modules as soon as it starts.

Exam preparations was mortifying ya Allah but with His mercy, I did not find myself in a state of debacle instead calmness and contentment at times. Although there is always that feeling in the pit of my stomach after writing the paper that you could have done better if you had instilled that "tomorrow's going to be an exam" kind-of regime from the start of the semester not a month before exams. Nonetheless, semester one is over apart from anxiously waiting for the results.. Now, onto semester two which deserves even better care and attention. It is simply not enough to just get by.


What it means to be yourself?

I think one can be their self entirely if they're comfortable around the people they encounter with. When you meet new people, it can take an awful lot of time to blend in and mould to the likings of a person, some may be heedless to that phenomenon and go with the flow. Some can connect in an instant! Some would only act within the confines of their own world. It is hard not knowing how people's perception of you and what belies within the thoughts, so you tend to represent the best in yourself. And I'm not sure if that is what it means to be yourself? It is definitely not fake but at the same time, there is the dire need to be at your best behaviour without portraying any flaw that you think you have. In other words, the use of diplomacy. But diplomacy is not enough on its own. The extra bit of kindness and respect with good intentions is important.

What are we as humans (to remind you of your existence) and what does it mean to be yourself is a question I tend to ask myself. We know our own attributes and it is to the people that we are comfortable with who are able to see beneath the surface. Along the way, I have made quite a few friends that had look beyond what they initially perceive of me as (an immensely shy individual) and by that I am grateful. These two girls are one of the few!

Erks, braids in jubah...hehe thanks to Idah.

When one tries.

In every struggle, you overcome.
In every doubt, you figure.
With every thought, you discover.
With every knowledge, you develop.
Every time, you try.
Never stop trying, it is the effort that counts and the rest is in His hands.