Friday, 28 May 2010

Revision Week.

Hoping to be as productive as ever. There's 10 days left, divided into 3 subjects; that gives 3 days to recap each subject. I'm dreading for Quantitative Method to be over, the ridiculously annoying subject this semester as it involves Math. I thought I would be over and done with Math after O'levels, I now wish that I could regain the enthusiasm I had in Math two years ago but I'm currently facing a mental block. That's how it is with the human brain, things & topics we dislike are usually placed at the back of our heads where the chances of recalling is slim. Whereas anything we find interesting, will always remain stagnant. For me, I'm not a natural in numbers...so I find this module quite challenging ever since my first lecture. Needing all the luck I can get, and not to forget the help from the dear past papers that I've been unwillingly practicing on.

Friday, 21 May 2010

Undecided


Sometimes in life you have to make decisions quick mere life decisions, risk-taking decisions, relationship decisions, basically anything that predetermines your future. Then once decided, you wonder absent-mindlessly if it is all worth it? I personally have made very very terrible decisions over the past decades and even now, I am indecisive when I have to decide on something practical. However you learn from that, and improve. I'm proud to say that my indecisiveness isn't as solid as before; I am able to foresee myself working under a field I enjoy doing or where I'll be in 10 years time. It may not be the clear picture of my future but it's good to have a vague idea of what you desire to achieve.

Something just hit me whether I'm rushing into things quickly or am I just repeating the same mistake by moving super slow. It's best not to let emotions play a role in this because usually, they make irrational decisions although I use the senses and intuition pretty much most of the time. At the moment, I am perplexed. I can't feel and I don't wish to. There are millions of ways to describe my current emotions, guess this is something I wish to avoid for a very long time after a failed one. However when you like someone or something, you just know. You're not supposed to have doubts. Why do I? I'm just scared of what I'm about to face.